Tuesday, November 20, 2007

snakes and snails and puppy dog tails...

if that's what little boys are made of, then no wonder i am still throwing up every day...

we had a level 2 ultrasound yesterday where we confirmed that all the parts are present and accounted for, everything is working like it's supposed to, and that we are indeed having a boy. kieran, not rosemary. it's a mental adjustment to let go of the idea of either gender at this point, so you know--it's a combination of excitement and disappointment. i am excited by the thought of a healthy and sturdy little hippie toddling around after his father trying to fix things with a leatherman micra and learning to sail and writing computer programs from age three. but i am also sad to lose the prospect of ribbons and dresses and knitting little lace sweaters for a girl, too. life is filled with bittersweet things like this i guess. don't get me wrong--i AM happy about the boy in spite of my desire for a girl. and mostly i am happy that he's healthy and active and robust. he's about 5 days larger than his gestational age would indicate, which is right on target for us. the hippie was over 10 pounds at birth. my brother was 11 pounds and 10 ounces. this doesn't bode so well for my comfort level, but it does mean that we don't really have any worries in the failure to thrive department either.

i'd show you some pictures from the ultrasound, but honestly they were mostly crap. we only have a few in spite of the hundreds they took--no one gave us a fabulous DVD this time--and none of them are really very clear. sad. i can tell you though--it's awesome to see him and spend so much time watching him move about. he was sucking his thumb, which was really cute. he has all his fingers and toes, we saw all the chambers of his heart, his brain, his abdominal organs, the bones in his legs and arms, his skull--all of it. it's mind-blowing.

he.

have to get used to saying he instead of it.

and now the house is officially full of testosterone. two boy cats, a hippie, and soon, a little boy baby. i told the hippie--i am getting a fluffy girl dog and tying it's fur FULL of pink ribbons.

8 comments:

denise said...

yeah, it's tuff in a house of boys, even the dogs are boys, guess i do have the girl cats and horse:) could put pink bows in K's mane, but then the daughter i do have wouldn't like that, lol. i'm just so glad he's healthy! dan says we need to find some black onesies now:) love~denisexxxooo

Allegra said...

congrats on the boy! it will be great. once he's here i am sure you'll totally forget all about the bows and ribbons!

Anonymous said...

congratulations to you! so excited! little boys love their mommas! and, jason will be great with him - he can buy him little D&D figures, teach him about cigars and computers - i'm currently in a household of 6 kids right now, including my 3 so i'm not focusing as well as i'd like, but we're excited for you both! can't wait to see the "three" of you over turkey day holiday! kimmie

Jenny said...

I remember reading somewhere in a book where the main character found out she was having a boy, her reaction was much like yours. Morning the death of the possible child while celebrating the life of the child to come. It was very touching. So you aren't alone in your feeling.

Jenn Johnson said...

I'm really excited for you. I remember feeling the same way when we had Chris (only for a fleeting moment though, since I was naked on an operating table with a big hole cut in my abdomen and about 10 gowned figures skurrying about when I found out what "he" was - ha ha). After having Chris in my life for a little more than 11 years, and having both girls around for contrast, I have to tell you - there really is nothing that compares to the bond between mother and son. "Momma's boy" is not just something to tease other kids about. I'm sure your son will love and idolize his daddy, but I bet he'll still have one special place in his heart that only his mom will fill. Enjoy!

Anonymous said...

When Rick and I decided to have a baby, I told him I was erecting (ha!)a y-chromosome roadblock. "No boys," I warned him. Now that Adam is here, let me tell you that I wouldn't trade having a son for the world. It's awesome. And besides, who better than us to train the next generation of men who will be inhabiting this planet? I am very excited for you.

Love, A.

gray la gran said...

ummm ... how do you say the boy name?

i get the bittersweet.

look on the bright side, maybe he'll be gay ;)

(good joke, right?)

oops. did i offend anyone ?!

let me know what colors you like so i don't end up knitting/crocheting 'blush & bashful'.

happy post-thanksgiving.

Laura said...

Mmm. The Bittersweet. When I had my first, which was my only son, I didn't want a boy much. though I didn't care what it was and I didn't know until the moment of his birth. and at that moment I was absolutely overjoyed - even to have a boy. And I wouldn't trade him for anything in the world. I love the relationship and friendship we have.

A friend of mine was expecting her first and on the day of her ultrasound discovered it was a boy. ha Very funny moment for the experienced mothers around her. She was devastated that it was a boy and horrified that she felt so near to him and felt that he could totally read her mind and was feeling very sad and unwanted at the moment. I went home and told my son about it and he said "Oh, tell her that having boys is MUCH better than having girls. You get to go watch boys DO STUFF. Like Baseball! Girls just sit around playing with Barbies." Funny that I ended up with four girls after him. Having a boy now isn't the end of all chances to have a girl some day ya know! :) (is it?)